Happily Ever After?

Finally, I settled for someone......he's been my friend since last summer.....we had a thing before but I didnt really work on it, now.........Everything's changed, I know who he really is, I know him better, I feel closer to him more than ever, and im really happy =) I wouldnt have it any other way. We've been through a lot of drama. I just realized what I was missing out and I quickly jumped on the train with him....=) im happy, so is he.....or so i think? lol nah its fun, sorry if i don't update my blog that often, been busy with life, aka school, partying and drama....and now i think im pass all of that, well except for school, speaking of which i have hundreds of papers to type and bullshit, hopefully i can make it through this semester. Im passing all my courses tho....barely passing =S but whatever, at least im passing unlike some people i know who aren't. Finals are around the corner, 2 more weeks left in school, i have to pay my winter semester....and my bills omg, i dont even wanna look at my bank account ugh, school is such a hassle....money wise, if anyone has any ideas on how to make money quickly....let me know....im gonna be needing it lol, anyways just updating you guys on whats happening in my life......=) i'll see ya guys later =)

Drama Drama Drama

Yes i know, i had my share of drama, and i dont want to talk about it right now, but I know its gonna be alright........I just got my reassurance......an hour and four minutes worth of minutes on my phone...ugh good thing he's on my my5! lol unlimited calling, whoooot! anyways moving on, I was watching The Soup sunday afternoon with my buddy when the clip of the week came up......listen, look....watch...soooo funny =P OH Audrina......we love you

SYTYCD....Canada!

Yes, we do have our own version, just like Idol...lol but hey the dancers are equally good. I am addicted to this show now. Its fun to watch especially when you know that you might bump into them any time in the city. Speaking of which, the studio where they rehearse and train for their productions is just right besides my friend's condo.....the Ballet institute. Anyways, Its fun to see them dance and just have fun on stage, now, sometimes I want to learn how to dance too...i think id be good at it lmao =P anyways here's a clip of the top 20....and my favorites.....Nico and Arrasay!! And my ultimate crush...omg, MILES!!!! and lara his partner

Thats miles on the Left and Nico on the right....whoooot these two are amazing....Im in-loke with them...lol, damn please please just turn gay miles lol...sooo cute, and nico...sooo hot...omg, Miles' abs are amazing! they are killer hahahaha, Nico's performance last week was amazing...captivated me...i love these guys...lol

And this is Lara and Miles....they're an awesome couple lol =P

Midterms and such

Whooot, just finished my last midterms earlier today....whew FINALLY!!! damn im tired of studying lol but I have too.....the year is passing by soo fast I cant believe it. It seems like summer was just yesterday, now i wake up every morning with the cold breeze on my face. I actually need to wear a coat now, =( sucks oh well, Summer was really fun, tons of drama....and now, a new drama is unfolding before me, and i know it's my fault, so im trying to fix it before it blows up on my face again....I need to hold back my feelings, cause if not.....POOOOOF there it goes again, Im tired of it, Im tired of everything, I wish everything would just be perfect.....everyone would be happy, no one has to sacrifice, everyone would get their way.... but life isnt perfect, we have to deal with this stuff everyday, we just have to suck it up and deal with it, get over ourselves and just do what we can do about the situation.....meh! thats life, shit happens, anyways lets just hope everything would be alright....wish me luck!! lol =)

Herbal Magic

I just think this commercial is cute and funny...lol watch it =P

Britney's BACK!

YES, Britney's bad....and she is HAWT!!! She just released her new video, Womanizer, last night.....and whoooot she's hot, anyways if you havent seen it yet, go on youtube and watch it!!

Done, Dunzo....BYE

Im tired of all the drama...please just leave me alone!!! ugh im single!! and I like the new New Kids on the Block song...single!! whooot i know they're old, but they're still hot im sorry...whooot joey mcintyre!! lol yes im single and available once again hehehe im done with the drama, im gonna let it go boy....just let it go..we're done

2 Weeks in

2 weeks in......its pretty chill, im meeting new KIDS lol yes kids, they're practically 17-18 yr olds fresh out of high school, and i can't even go out with them! lol ugh anyways, there was this cute boy that sat beside me today, his name is ellie....so gay hahahaha his name i mean, anyways, he's cute and straight....meh, good eye candy =P i hate them tho, they are such a tease, but whatever, I'll have fun with what im offered! my professors are pretty chill as well... OMG one of my profs was like "you look SOOOO familiar, where have I seen you before?" I was like, im a server and I work for retail so I do with high traffic stores so you prolly saw me in there....but at the back of my mind....he has prolly seen me in a gay bar somewhere LOL and he was eye-ing me all night...LOL I BET! hahaha it was way funny, my friends that were with me when he asked me this thought it was so stalker-ish of him hahahaha anyways he knows one of my coworkers in the restaurant so prolly he's not a stalker, OH and he lives around my gym so he prolly seen me there as well.......he looks/talks really gay tho, but he has daughters and whatever....hmmmm but then again, gays can have families too...whatever, he prolly is one hahahaha my gaydar is always on! lol.....my classmates are nice so far, really open to new stuff and whatever lol =) its fun......work wise, I dont think i can handle 2 jobs...=S its really gonna be stressful, like right now, 2 weeks in, im really tired and i lack sleep, cause of work =S I kinda wanna quit one job, then I can work at my prof's restaurant lol...thats HOT lol....love life wise.....NADA, single, been rejected uhm 3 times IN 2 WEEKS!!! JUST MY LUCK! whatever, HE WILL COME =) OMFG I JUST GOT A POSTING FROM CRAIGSLIST FOR ME yesterday! i was shocked, I told my friends and they thought it was creepy and stalker-ish but i must admit, it boosts your confidence and its kinda hot =P anyways thats about whats been happening to me =P

MEET ETHAN

90210

Yes, I watched it....i think it was cute...pretty hot people...and yes im weighing my options between scott wilson and ethan from the show...whoot, pretty hot guy...not to mention canadian too...he's from yellowknife and damn he is gorgeous.....story line was kinda lame tho....I watched it with my sister and we already predicted what this season's gonna be like.....yes, im just watching it because of uhm the hot guys hahaha whooops lol :P whoot he's hot and adorable too, my new eye candy lol =P

Back To School

whoot yea, I started school today....wasnt as eventful as i thought it would be but it was fun cause i have a class with my friend and i think we were the only gay ones there...meh whatever, i found a new fag hag and a new prof to make fun of...LOL jk =P anyways it was pretty awesome, except for the fact that i had to work today till 6.....yea it wasnt bad but it was damn busy, oh I got a new bag btw lol, it was originally $365 bucks......got it for........$55! LOL yes, I got a really good deal on that one, its awesome, im gonna bring it to school tomorrow and make everyone jealous hahaha meh, it looks awesome, i love it, all brown leather messenger bag....oh well.....oh there was this weird asian girl in my first class earlier, she was like, can i borrow your notes, i cant see the projector.....honey, we're two rows from the front....LOL her eyesight must be really bad OR he wants a little somethin somethin of this RAWR meat! LOL we'll see if she's still gonna be in my other classes tomorrow...tomorrow's gonna be interesting, Im gonna have my specialty classes....the classes that focus on my program more....and most of the people in my program are girls....soooo tomorrow should be interesting, lol, what if im the only guy? lol im scared, they would flood me hahaha im gonna be sorrounded by pussys lol hmmmmmm interesting...anyways thats it for now.....=) I'll keep you guys posted

Scott Wilson

I will devote this post to Scott Wilson, very awesome guy......sorry for being a creeper and stalked some pictures....damn adorable guy.....none the less, their show is awesome and i think everyone should watch it, if you're really into traveling.....this is THE show to watch!! Justin is just hilarious lol

Lazy Tuesdays

Yea, im staying in again.....im loving my bed these days, I was up early today, then I was in the gym for like 2 hours. omg, cutie count was up to 5....ground breaking lol im just tired now, i feel like im gonna pass out anytime soon, oh BTW departures is on again tonight!!lol im starving now, i dont understand this, i just ate a complete meal earlier, im craving for some LICKS mmmmmm damn it.....i tried googling scott wilson earlier, and damn it i cant find any other pictures of him =( i dont know whats it is about him, he just has this wonderful charm...makes you want to crave more.....ugh i wish he's gay =S If he is, omg please let me know, call me...im still single btw hahaha again please people, let me know what you think about that online dating thingy...im seriously thinking about it....HELP!!!! lol

Online Dating

online dating, yay or nay? I have been contemplating on it...well right now, its gonna be my last resort, im still relying on networking in terms of meeting people, guys...awesome but sometimes you'll be kinda scared to go out with them because he's a friend of a friend, and if it doesnt work out and end badly....it may create a rift either between you and your friend or your friend and the other guy.....online dating doesnt have that disadvantage....ugh which reminds me, I was talking to the guy I was kinda seeing and I know he's moving to Vancouver and whatever so im keeping my guard down, he was just taken aback with the tension between me and my friend whom i used to go out with...so now he was like, I think we should just be friends, stop kissing and just be friendly....not too friendly tho...i was like ok, since you're leaving anyways, i don't want to get too attached....Anyways, should i get myself an online dating profile...i mean dont get me wrong i have some profiles already, but im not looking to date.....let me know guys what you think about this...please please pleaseeee =)

On a lighter note, I can't get over Scott Wilson.....the guy from DEPARTURES, he is just adorable...he's the one with the piercing on his brow....Damn it, I love him, soo sexy, and just the way he talks...captivating, he has this amazing sex appeal hahaha, anyways I'm hoping he's gay or at least bi hahaha....he's the guy i just want to cuddle with and just have adventures with...meh oh well, a guy can dream =P

One More Reason

As i am watching clips from different episodes of Departures, one more reason why I love this show became apparent....the cinematography is just awesome, the director, director of photography, Andre Dupuis is a genius!!! He always gets the shot, how the show was edited was amazing and flawless! Cheers guys! Can't wait to watch tonight's episode!!!=) Sorry Lauren, I'm gonna have to miss your show tonight, you have lots of replays up here anyways =P

Here's a link to their website: Departures

Staying In

hmmm lets see how bad this will be, I'm staying in for tonight...yes its been a while since slept on my own bed and stayed in and just chill and do nothing...lets see how long would last.....well right now im gonna go see a marathon of departures...i can't get enough of those two...AH and the hills are on later tonight anyways...ok I think im gonna be busy watching and updating myself with the current events hahaha =P 

Departures

I've been hooked on this TV show called Departures, besides the fact that these guys are hot, they get to travel the world and immerse themselves in different cultures. When I first saw this show i was soooo jealous of these guys, I wish i get to travel the world too and experience all these stuff, sadly I can't right now...school is around the corner and i dont have any money...thats the main reason actually lol. I want to enjoy the world and get paid at the same time, I want to experience the different cultures...see whats different, whats the same and whats new....that would be really awesome =) here's the intro of the show, I don't want to spoil any of the episodes..watch it, its awesome =) you'll fall in love with this show! ugh they're sooo cute lol

The Hillsss

Yes, I am kinda watching it right now...and I find it really funny hahaha specially Spencer Pratt, he is such a blonde guy haha, what an ass btw LIKE major hahaha anyways Lauren's new boy, Doug....DOUUUGGG hahaha have you guys been watching the after show as well? lol i must agree with them doug is just blah, he looks and sounds boring.....Spencer was such a welcoming host btw with Heidi's sister.....and come on, you're freakin engaged to her sister, treat her with some respect and decency....its just stupid...."just be nice.....ITS MY MIDDLE NAME" HA! yea whatever...anyways I think this season would be really interesting with the Pratt siblings and Heidi's sister around.....btw my favorite is still Whitney, such a sweet girl...love her hahaha :) here's a part of the first episode of season four, go watch the full on on mtv :)

Disturbia

bum bum bidum bum bum bidum dum

Yes, this song is stuck in head right now....the video is sick btw lol she looks really freaky

NEXT

I was watching mtv today and next was on, and it was a gay episode lol anyways, i thought it was really fun, I would want to go on a date show like that, but then again, how real is it gonna be? but sometimes you can just tell that there really is a chemistry between the two people anyways, i youtubed a video...this wasn't the episode i watched but its fun how the world and pop culture is adjusting and slowly incorporating GAYness into the society...gotta love it =P

Jonas Brothers

So who do you think is the cutest jonas brother?!?!

personally i think its nick!!! LOL i have a thing for curly hair and cute smiles =) he melts me lol =)

Back for good?

WOW, its been a really long while, I can't believe that i could stay away from my blog for this long.....it has ben over a month...almost two...now i really owe you guys a lot! LIKE A LOT!!!!

okay, so here's the down-low on what has happened to me within this past few months.......JUNE: I met the most awesome people during pride here in Toronto, I hang out with them almost everyday since...I love them to death lol =) my best friend had some trouble with a couple of people within our circle of friends so I had to deal with the drama I think that sums up JUNE.....JULY: the party month, I had a countdown to my birthday...i was out at least 3 times a week...AT LEAST omg i need to detox! im so gross hahaha!!! Ive had a lot of drunken nights and i mean A LOT, puking everywhere...whew LOVELY. very classy of me btw.....OH i had some boys come and go as well, the french guy who gave me the shirt was long gone after i went to florida.........AHHHHH FLORIDA WAS AWESOME! I met some pretty awesome people down there as well......Florida is full of HOTTTTTTTT people, LIKE HOTTT, smokin..whew, naked guys in the park, oh hello head turner =P so yea I totally forgot about frenchie when i got back...i got wayyy too distracted with my boys in florida lol =P  anyways when i got back everyone looked uhmm lets just say uhm they strained my eyes hahahahaha im mean like that, anyways I kinda dated one of my friends.....that didn't kinda end well, but now we're working on it, we're still friends but whenever we go out together, and get drunk, we always end up FIGHTING....everytime!!!! yes, im getting tired of it, im tired of all the drama and shit, i know i have my share in this drama, but i think i am trying to keep it down.....or not even bother talking about it with him, cause whenever we do, it makes him sad which makes me sad as well and makes me feel really bad cause i know i did something bad...or something like that, YES i was the one who broke it off...................im an ass....I remember last weekend, when he caught me making out with this guy whom we thought my other friend liked....he was like "way to go! you're such a nice friend" but as it turns out my friend doesnt like him..whew, lucky me lol and he's leaving for vancouver in a week....yes so now im still keeping my guard up......whats up with all these guys thats been gettin involved with me...and BTW i STILL havent found what im lookin for...my smokin hot bf, a guy who compliments me...ugh im so bad lol, but i have some one in mind, I dont want to jinx it tho so im not gonna mention him=P anyways, there was this guy at work today that walked in, with this guy i saw on the subway...once again...i had an "i knew it" moment....i knew he was gay the moment i stepped inside the train lol =P so yea he ws with this really really RRRRRRRREAAALLY cute blonde boy who smiled at me when they entered the store...ugh...i was talking to my co-worker and i was like, I HATE GORGEOUS COUPLES! and he was like, well hon soon enough you'll hate yourself, and i was like, there's a compliment somewhere there, and im gonna take it lol thanks =) anyways, i thought its just not fair for both of them to be gorgeous...well not fair for me cause i want one too!! LOL =P OK OK, moving on.....AUGUST!! the first weekend of august we went to MONTREAL for pride and damn that was AWESOME!!! wayyyy too many hot people!! WAYYYYY, and what sucks about it is that i DIDNT GET LAID! =( oh well thats life, you win some, you loose some so better suck it up =) OMG he just messaged me on FB LOL weeeeee omg im such a nerd anyways montreal was awesome and i just want to go back there prolly next summer...i dont know about winter =S brrrr im gonna freeze.....now that august is coming to an end, Im excited about school!!! hoefully i meet some one there hahaha i told that to my friend and he was like " oh boy, you're goin to school for all the wrong reasons" yea i know im such a slut sometimes but whatever, it will be my price whenever i aced a test or quiz or something lol =P I wanna go and do a back to school shopping, buy some binders, papers, pens, and some uhmmmmi dont know useless stuff that i will never use ever again, i'm excited to buy the text books hahahaha i'm excited to go back to school....i'd be the biggest geek lol =P anyways thats pretty much what's been happening in my life lately =P I'm going to try my very best to update this blog...promise!!!!!!!!!!! =) thanks guys for sticking it out with me =)

Doritos

I youtubed some doritos commercials and just thought that this one is sooo funny lol

Love is a Marathon

This is my song right now hehe =P

You love to run
Into the arms Of anyone
Take off your shoes and socks
And stay awhile
You like the adrenaline rush
Just a little too much
You go from day to day
Hand to mouth
And wonder why You're unsatisfied

Chorus

Cause love is a marathon
That's why you get tired so fast of everyone
Slow down and pace yourself
Cause when it's good
It's a long open road

You think still
You'll find a soul behind a thrill
You're just a cat chasing your tail
Round and round
What if you relax
Something might last

[Chorus]

You're exhausted always coming down
Trying to come up for air
Trying to act like you just don't care
La da da, de da da

[Chorus]

*sorry can't find a better source for the music =P

I've Heard It All Before

LOL yea I'm so sorry for leaving my blog for a week...whooooppsss! =P I was kinda busy with work and going out and catching up with my friends, FUN! all the new gossips..whoot! lol =P sooo sweet haha anyways...is it just me or Johnny Hockin is such an adorable boy?!? His eyes are amazing and his personality is soo cute, well at least based on what I see on TV =P Meh, He's cute for me hehe :)

Baby Food Diet

A friend of mine started this series of diets to see which one works the best to loose some weight and hopefully reduce his belly...which he doesn't have..look at the vid...anyways..lets see which one works..maybe i'll try it LOL

E-harmony

Does it really work? I just want to find that right person and fall inlove...if this commercial is true...i just might sign up...do they do guys tho? anyways watch the commercial, i love how the girl gets teary eyed in the end...so sweet...i think the guy's hot too lol anyways WATCH IT!!

Welcome Back

Yea I'm back in Toronto, and i can't believe how much i miss florida!!!!!!! I was on the subway yesterday as well and i was looking around me...yes people watching...love it! anyways yea i was like "where did all the hot people go?!?!?" the city feels kinda empty and something's missing, I dont know what....ahhh prolly because when i left the city it was pride week and everyone was pouring in the city...it was hella busy and people are on the streets all the time....today i was walking up yonge and no one was there! like nada..no hot guys, not hot women....no one, it was empty.....after being in florida....im sorry but i think the people here lacks some uhm hotness hahahaha it's sad now i just want to go back to florida hahaha oh and prolly because school's out as well sooo the city's kinda empty and stuff....hahaha when i told my friend this, he was like "welcome to toronto!!" haha i was like hmmm it didnt seem this bad before i left for florida hahaha...and prolly because its just the start of the week..meh this should get better...IT WILL!! I still believe in toronto! lol we're hot! we just wear a bunch of clothes, even in summer! come on Canada's suppose to be the healthier of the two countries! speaking of which, I ate soooo much junk while i was in florida hahaha i have a belly now =( i have like a life saver wrapped around my waist....i wen to the gym yesterday and did like 300 sit ups or something

i did my chest too and now it hurts! i need to go to the gym more often! I am so going tomorrow! i wanna see my crush! lol hmmm i was watching "fat camp" late last night and i never felt wayyy better about myself, i know im soo mean but come on, its just sad that some kids are over weight on such a young age...i know some are hereditary and some arent....the ones that arent...im sorry but come on, have some control over what your eating...eating is not everything.....who am i to talk lol whatever anyways im gonna look for some stuff to post lol =P

Gym Guy

Whew! i went to the gym yesterday and my crush was there!!!!!! OMG I'd like to think he was checking me out as well...he's at least BI cause i remember seeing him with another hot guy lol and it didn't seem that they were friends friends...if you know what i mean, im gonna go back tomorrow, i wish he's there lol damn he's sooooo hot i have this mental image of him working out with his red shorts on and his fitted tee omg his pecs, his body is just amazing, just like a greek god......damn it i wish id have a guy like him.....if ever i get him by any wild amazing chance, i'd never let him go....i think he's really sweet too OMG i think im obsessed i should stop LOL geez i need a guy in my life....some one who fits my qualifications...fuck this is sad =( oh well, I just want to fall in love hahaha soooo cheesy of me BAH!

Im Back!!!

YES I'm finally back in Toronto...damn, I missed this city, but i think im missing florida too..come on, who wouldn't the awesome wether, great people, not to mention the place we stayed at was amazing! Now, im back from my frolicking=P I have to get in to "work" mode again....A.K.A. "party mode" lol damn I missed sooo much things this past week, my friend's surprise party, their graduation, PRIDE...oh well I had fun and got my tan on =P I will try and make them jealous lol =P Im going to try and post some pics later on once i've uploaded them on my laptop...im so tanned oh and i got a henna tattoo while i was down there......IT SUCKS ll now it just blends with my skin tone...its not really that obvious...well in the first place i didnt want it to be obvious just because im gonna be working and i don't want it showing but now since my goal is to make everyone jealous that i went to florida LOL i have to flaunt it hahahaha =P anyways im gonna go grab some breakfast and update my blog more =P i have a lot of free time hahaha I'll see you guys later!!=)

Party Month

As most of you might know, my birthday is in July.....this month...this is going to be my party month! lol every weekend....weekend meaning, wednesday till saturday hahaha nah im kidding, im only 21 once and i have to max it out! im gonna turn 22 before the school starts....hopefully im not the oldest guy in my class...but whatever anyways florida's been awesome gettin my tan on and shopping hahaha gotta love it....anyways im gonna go for now..be back later!!

Happy Pride Toronto!!!!

YAY!! Happy pride guys!!! Unfortunately I'm not going to be there for all the weekend celebrations tho I had my share during the week, madonnarama last thursday ( i know how gay...but fuck its pride you're allowed...i'm allowed =P) then yesterday enjoyed the patio with my friends and went to my friend's party at his place...really awesome btw =) All I can say is that i really had fun during the week and i hate the fact that im going away....BUT while all of you guys are sulking inside because of the shitty weather, Im enjoying the heat here in Virginia then Florida tomorrow =P Gonna be there for a week =) I'm gonna get my tan on =P Anyways Happy Pride again, and to all my friends....i'm gonna miss you guys, see ya in a week!!!!!

Committed?

I saw this picture earlier and decided to post it...I dont know there was just something about it that is so genuine that attracted me to it....and i love ck's lol =P They're hot....I know i know its just a pic, and these two may be straight for all we know, but whatever i love the pic, its hot and they're gorgeous =P

John and Kate plus 8

John and Kate plus 8.....my new favorite show...as all of you might know, I am a family guy... i like kids...who am i kidding, I love kids! someday I'm going to have a family someday, 4 kids, maximum lol, 2 boys and 2 girls....or just one boy and a girl. I dont like 3, the middle child's going to be left out...based from my experience lol =P If you dont like kids.....and you're with me....I'll make you love them lol =P anyways I think this show is awesome, She was telling before why she wanted to make a reality show...she said it was to document the progress of her kids becuase before she used to video tape everything, when she had the twins, she stopped, she got way busy...and now this show is her solution to this problem...anyways I say watch it...its fun and its very very interesting...its fun to watch these kids grow up =)

Cool Quenchers

Have you guys seen the cool quenchers commercial? lol It's soooo cute lol I love the little girl in the end! lol =)

Ken and Barbie

I Just saw barbie and ken working out today...lol sooo cute and funny, Barbie had HUGE boobs and ken had a bleach blonde hair lol I think they're body builders lol cute tho....not hot...im not a big fan of the big and bulky guys

Men In Uniform

What is it with men in uniform that makes them sooo yummy and delicious lol sooo hot. I was in the subway today on my way to the gym and these two EMS guys were there! OMG one of them was hellacute!!! He was wearing his uniform and his hat! and tilted sideways, so cute and adorable. He was really hot! I may be a little too obvious haha I sat beside him ad kept looking at him, but hey it was worth it...anyways what is it with men in uniform that makes them soo hot? I think because uniforms make people look sharp....and the really cute ones stand out a lot because everyone is wearing the same thing and you'll just notice the ones that stand out, and the ones that stand out are the ones with the KILLER looks because....its all they have to stand out....thats what I think anyways =)

Circa

Circa, one of my favorite clubs here in toronto, one because its HUGE and two because of the diverse crowd it attracts...but sometimes people there can be too pretentious and end up looking like snobs, Most of the people go there to have fun with their friends and most often than not just stick with them all through the night in fear of getting lost in this huge maze. They say most clubs has a life span of around 3-6 months....and I must say.....I'm sorry but somehow circa is kinda loosing its magic, Its a good venue for huge events, such as concerts and stuff but on a regular night, It can't get as packed as the openning night, the upper rooms would be close till like 1 am because there arent enough people in the club to fill the space, and if they open it the club would just look floozy cause there arent enough people...there would be way to many space.....anyways, I just want to show you guys out there what it looks like inside...the different rooms and stuff...It was the venue for the commercial for So You Think You Can Dance Canada.....so just check the video out....i got it off you tube and its not the best quality but you can still see what the club looks like =)

Christian the Lion

This is what happens when you domesticate a Lion........

Was Acceptable in the 90's?

I was downloading songs a couple of nights ago and I just downloaded some songs I listened while I was growing up. One of them was TLC, Crazy Sexy Cool....I loved that album....this was my favorite song from the album...Diggin on you...I guess this was when they coined the phrase "I Dig you"...Correct me if im wrong im just guessin...anyways here goes, enjoy and have a good night!

Models

What is it about being a model that is soooo hot and exciting? I wanna be one myself....what makes them sooo godly and you just want to sit there and watch them walk...there's something about them that is so admirable and i dont know......all i know is i want to be one...but i know i can't one im not THAT hot and two im short.....5'8 i need to be at least 5'11...damn that 3 inches... i wish i could be 6'0 flat...i'll be the happoest guy alive.....then again, if i dont have the looks, then i won't cut it as well...uhmm canada is diverse ebough, I'll find away lol, Give me the Height, Body...Im ready for runway =P see these are the thoughts when you get bored....lol damn they are so gorgeous =( just look at that 17 year old up top...yes he's just 17....Canadian too =P 

Privacy

Yes, I've been busy on another site lately till they kicked me out...justguys.net....you know why? cause they have been monitoring all the chat and or the emails that you send on their website... Apparently it's BAD to send links either to your blog or to other websites to prevent SPAM....why would it be SPAM when your just sending linkage to another website that is YOURS as well...ok I understand where they are coming from, but looking through my emails, i'm sorry but its none of their business if the other person in contact with receives spam or not becuase it is the user's discretion as to open the mail or not. Just like hotmail or yahoo......Like they don't read through the emails and stuff...they have a solution for that.....a SPAM folder....Oh well they have a different solution....to cut you off LOL...funny...its just freaked me out how they read through your emails....so whenever you send personal info through email on a certain website...remember, that they have a copy of it, if you send your address, your phone #, pin, anything......they have it as well....that was an eye opener for me.

Ugly People

Yes im going to be mean just for this post....I'm sorry to all those people that would be affected by this post....which is like 10% of my readers lol JK most of you guys are FAB.....anyways WHY DO THE UGLY PEOPLE GET BF'S FAST? and I mean FAST lol like this week they broke off with their current bf.....they have a new boy next week...HOW THE HELL DOES THAT HAPPEN?! and I'm still single?!? what wrong with this world, am intimidating? does my looks intimidate other people from approaching me HAHAHA I wish, or prolly im just uglier than all these ugly people I see on the streets on facebook, on dlist that have boyfriends...MEH! I cant wait for school to start, then I'll have plenty of boys to flirt with LOL Just Kidding!! no im not LOL. I remember telling my friend that i got in the univ i wanted and that i was excited for school and he was like...are you sure you're excited for school or the BOYS that you're gonna be having lol.....BOTH LOL damn it im such a slut lol....soo whats new with me...nothin really just taking it easy this week...I decided not to take any shifts from my lazy ass coworker who i Almost had a threesome with.... shhhhhh he has a BF LOL...ugly LOL im mean I said NO cause one, I dont like threesomes NOW, cause in the end im the one being left out, and two it just fills a void....of not having someone, and i dont like it cause in the morning, the void is still there, same thing goes with one night stands...Anyways....I'm going to have more free time this week, to 1, go to the GYM, 2, Catch up with my friends...and 3, find a lover LOL Plenty of fish in the sea and im tired of fishing, I'm just going to cast a huge net and catch all the fishes at the same time...but how can you do it? I had like 2 dates in a day, thats the furthest i've been in throwing a net out there...anyways I'll go figure it out when I sleep, hopefully it would come to me lol..have a good night guys!

Shelter

I literally just finished watching this movie, Shelter........I like it....Its better than brokeback lol =P well It's a more realistic approach to the modern day tale of straight boys gone gay =) I like the family theme that revolved around it....I thought it was funny how the character's names were like porn star names lol Zach...Zach Randall.....Cody, Sean Cody, Shaun...Shaun from SC as well LOL geez am I making it too obvious that I watch a lot of porn, anyways I'll shut up....the movie was cute...makes me want to have  a Shaun in my life and a Cody as well...but I can wait...I guess lol =) the movie was awesome! go and watch it!! I love how Zach stormed in on Shaun and just made love to him in the middle of the movie, thought it was really hot. I love the scene where they were playing frisbee by the beach oh not to mention when Traci knew about Zach and Zach was like, "can I stay with you for tonight" and how she replied "Yes but we cant fuck" LOL made me laugh so hard....anyways go see it for yourself...I like it =)

SO OVER YOU

LOL I dont know why I wrote that title down, one prolly im bitter, and the other IM MOVING ON! hahaha Last night, I went out....as usual...I was suppose to go out with my coworkers but i ended up going out with THE BOY and his friends.....the boy meaning the guy who HAD a soft spot in my ugh heart.....anyways I had fun...just not with him...=P He had a friend visiting from montreal...anglo-french guy...anyways I thought he was really cute the first time I saw him...not to mention, hot as well...whew lol. So yea, we went to Circa...for 15 mins...after paying $15 cover charge...because frenchie hated the place and wanted to go to the village.....He literally dragged me out of the club, he was really gone and wasted already...he's from Montreal and Im sorry, but I don't expect him to know the in and outs of Toronto even tho he lived here for a while. So basically I had to go with him (I dont want to leave this guy all alone with no one to go to on the streets in a city he doesnt know..and plus, he's a friend of "a friend")...leave everyone in the club...he was sooo restless when he's drunk...we were running on the streets....then the rain started pouring...we got soaking wet....we were suppose to go to the other club but decided not to cause we were wet already and its just gross....he took his shirt off while walking....whoa hotness hahaha, mind you it was still raining, just like those scenes from the movies...I was just waiting for him to kiss me...he didnt anyways, but he wanted my shirt off as well...I said no I don't want to look like a sketch lol we went back to our friend's place, but they werent there....and i knew that cause its just 1:30! So I called another friend of mine who lives in the same building...she said she's in this kareoke bar down the street and said that we should drop by....so I said what the hell sure why not....we went there she was drunk already, and frenchie got drunk even more....now we were getting frisky lol he knows I like him so whatever....we left at 3:30 went back to my friends place...the girl one....lol but she didnt want frenchie to go with us cause she doesnt know him that well...so I was like fair enough, so we dropped frenchie at "player's" place.....and apparently he was with another guy that night....Made me realize...this is the 2nd time I caught him with another guy on his bed...WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! He's not even THAT cute or THAT hot......frenchie wanted me to stay over, but my girl friend said that I'm sleeping over at her place.....now I kinda like frenchie more LOL but too bad, He's going back to Montreal =( Was fun tho....I had fun running in the rain and getting wet with him, he was adorable BUT....there's a big BUT.......I told him he's soo much like our friend...THE PLAYER...and ass and a bitch lol WHAT AM I GETTING MYSELF INTO?!? lol oh well

Soft Spot For Losers?

OK...remember the guy I caught in bed with another guy......I like him...A LOT, I dont know why, but theres just this quirk about him that I really like, the "bad boy" attitude he has is a turn on, He's confident but not cocky, He needs to fix his teeth tho, anyways bottom line.........I slept with him....and sleep like sex sleep.....we just slept together well I actually fell asleep in his arms..awww I know, seems like a dream to me, IS THIS BAD BOY CHANGING? did I change him? lol nah, I woke up today thinking everything would just go back to normal.....and now its kinda is....then I saw a text message from him....."how's work?" WOW now he's actually interested in how my day went......anyways before all of this happened I kinda talked to him about stuff like I asked him what he wants from me cause he's sending mix signals and shit like that...he wanted to be friends.....I felt like he was pushing me away the rest of the night.....well he opened up about his previous relationship....which ended with a disaster.....now I think he always has his guard up....hopefully i can break it down...he'll always have a soft spot in my heart, oh well, he better not take advantage of it, my best friend will be furios....OMG I just remembered.....THEY WERE FLIRTING LAST NIGHT!!!!! ugh and i kinda hated my best friend for a moment last night, then he said sorry, and we talked stuff through...anyways that's what happened last night. lol oh well, I'll see what happens with this guy......I'll keep you guys posted lol :)

Work Stuff

Ok yesterday, went to work......and ugh, the ugliest, most stupid manager was working.....anyways we had a "miscommunication" Oh well it was her fault, I was doing cash and this customer decided to return something for exchange, They didn't have the receipt so I had to do it manually. We have a promotion going on, 30% off all shorts, $20 off linen shirts and dress shirts and all that jazz. So I was helping this gay couple and my manager was beside me....THEY asked her if the shirt was 30% off....SHE said.."ABSOLUTELY" and I looked at her and I asked her....."30% off on the shirt??" and she said YES....I looked at her kinda confused because I know it was just $20 off not 30%....So I gave the customers 30% off because THATS WHAT SHE SAID, and SHE'S THE MANAGER....they were exchanging a $90 dollar shirt (which is $70 bucks with the promotion ) for a $100 one (and I gave them 30% off) This now would just cancel each other out...I mean they wouldn't have any balance left over. And so they didn't and left the store....then she looks at me and says..."DID THEY PAY THE BALANCE?" uhhh NO bitch cause you told them its 30% off and thus it will just cancel out......fuck I wasnt even suppose to be doing cash that time! ugh So stupid, The store falls apart whenever she's working ugh

PART 2:

Here are some tips you SHOULD follow when you're shopping.....

1. DON'T BRING YOUR GF (for all the straight people out there) cause they would just cause havoc in the dressing room......or don't bring like a bunch of your friends with you in the fitting room...it just gets annoying for the other customers.

2. KNOW YOUR SIZE, don't come in the store and tell the sales people, "uhm I dont know my pant size" geez dude, then what are you wearing right now...I mean come on, use some common sense and make your brain think even for a second, It won't kill a brain cell, trust me

3. DON'T TRY ON TONS OF STUFF AND END UP BUYING ONE cause it will make you look cheap and tacky not to mention you're going to be the most hated person once you leave...trust me sales people would talk about you, and the guys at the fitting room will ban you forever!

4. MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT SMELLY/SWEATY...cause thats just plain disgusting, sometimes you make the clothes all wet from your sweat as well and you end up not buying it...oh God! not to mention if you have BO...it STICKS TO THE CLOTHES YOU TRY ON so please please please, be conscious of how you smell...especially this summer, we have to keep a bottle of our fragrance in the fitting room during summer. I know sometimes some people can't help it.....if you know you have bad BO then don't go shopping that day, you'll just embarrass yourself.

5. Last but not the least, ASK AROUND, ASK THE SALES GUYS OR FITTING ROOM GUYS FOR SUGGESTIONS,SIZES ETC. thats what we're here for, to help you guys shop! we get paid to grab you clothes that WORKS on you hence there is no really need for people to come with you when you're shopping! lol we're there for you. And Don't go out of the fitting rooms with your socks on because you want another size.....ASK US for one alright?!?


Guys, just follow these..and trust me your store will love you! lol =)

We Own the Night

Yes, just finished watching the movie We Own the Night, such a lovely movie about family and revenge...besides seeing Eve Mendez' nipples in the beginning of the film...was hot btw, I loved how the story revolved around this family and how they coped with the circumstances that was thrown at them....I love Joaquin Pheonix and his acting, I love the cinematography, very good direction, the story was superb! I've never seen anything like it since the Godfather.....very awesome, I enjoyed every minute of it! Im giving it 4.5 out of 5 stars......the .5 was because it can be a bit draggy at some parts.....It is definitely a MUST SEE movie, especially for father's day...it's good =) I love how in the end these two brothers showed their affection for each other.....made me wish I had a brother...very captivating! You won't be disappointed! 

Thoughts at 1:32 am

LOL yes its 1:32 am and im still up, I cant sleep, and I'm listening to Kylie lol....anyways I was just surfing the net and decided to get some pics of guys holding hands.....I dont know there's just something about it thats sooo sweet and innocent and so peaceful...its probably the security that it gives you, knowing that the person next to you would have your back whenever you need someone....he's gonna be there no matter what.....thats what I need =P

Random NJ Pics

ugh, it wont upload most of the stuff I have...im trying as I type...oh well, I'll try again later

Yea, these were some pictures I took during my trip to Atlantic City...It was fun... bought tons of stuff and now im paying it back...ugh I hate Visa lol

He's Just NOT that into YOU

Damn Bradley Cooper's HOTTT lol

Im not the only one

Just when you thought you were all alone....everyone is experiencing the same shit. I went to my other work today to talk to my manager about my schedule and my availability...I got there on time, she was going for her break, and my other co-worker too, who happend to be gay. Anyways, we went to the food court to by their food. They started talking about the men in their lifes and what not. My manager, ALWAYS had the "class A" meat.....meaning, the guy you want to take home to your mom...perfect guy next door kinda type. But the catch is.....they "RESPECT" her too much lol....they don't want to have sex right away, they prefer to wait it out....no offense to my manager but, prolly its because of her age....if you are dating a younger guy, then probably they would look up to you and what not.....but then again, if you invite them over to your place and watch some porn, i don't think they/he should respect you...lol thats dirty....OR HE'S JUST NOT THAT IN TO YOU.....side comment: hey made it a movie and now I want to read the book before it hit the screens. We then compared guys, and my co-worker said that I've been seeing "class E" guys.....the losers and assholes that just wants sex and nothing else, one night stands and a good fuck....well clearly I'm not into those....anymore, I admit I've been there, done that...and it sucked the next day.....so yea, we reached a conclusion that my manger and I should switch the boys we are seeing, since she needs a good time, and I need my perfect boy....the could've been the perfect solution....if only I was a straight girl hahahaha....now I know Im not the only one......Anyways I had a great time...let me look for the trailer of that book, I thought it was funny.

So much for my Happy Ending

HA! soooo my song right now lol =P

BLUFF

Have you been bluffed by your intuition? Mine just did............a couple of nights ago, I went out on a date with this guy have been seeing for a few months now (4 dates...two months, its not gonna go anywhere). We went to this club I kinda frequent on a wednesday night...Surprise surprise the guy I kinda hooked up a few months back was there too.....All my friends didn't like him. But I dont know, I had that hope inside of me that he wasn't the guy my friends were telling me. Something was telling me that this guy is special and I just need to break that hard shell of his and find something, something uhmm special underneath. Anyways, we were at the club, he saw me, I saw him.....mind you I was with my date....we went to the patio to uh smoke lol...yes yes smoking kills....I only smoke when I drink. I went over and said hi to him. All of a sudden I saw this hint of jealousy when he asked me "was that your bf"...I said no...well technically he really wasn't. After that he told me that he was moving the next day and asked if I could help him out or whatever....I wasn't free thursday....Friday, yesterday, I was off and I just went to the gym. After my gym, since i was close downtown anyways I decided to give him a call and see how's his "moving" goin.....I helped him out, 1 because I felt bad that he's just all alone and he had a ton of stuff to move and 2, To tell you the truth, I still liked him and that tiny hint of jealousy turned me on...lol. Got to his place, fixed some stuff, organized more of his stuff...then he bought me dinner and some alcohol just to celebrate lol..we had a good conversation over dinner and it made me like him even more. My other friend, lives conviently upstairs in his building so we went over and had the "party" over there. He got a call from his friend and he told us that his other friend was comming over...no biggie. His friend got there and everybody was drinking in the balcony....all of a sudden *poof* they were holding hands......HA! oh well....I was sooo down the rest of the night, my friends were comforting me in the bedroom lol I was ranting like a mad drunk lol. THEY WERE FROLICKING while I was away. Anyways this FRIEND of his sat on my other friend's lap the rest of the night...so he got jealous and went back to his place....(as my friend told me this morning)...I was in the bedroom already passing out lol....I woke up this morning and i remembered my stuff is still at HIS place. I gave him a call, he didnt pick up, prolly he was sleeping still so we waited for a bit. He called back....so i told him i'm gonna go and pick my stuff up, and he said he's gonna take a shower and clean himself up. And I was like, uhm i could go down now and get my stuff cause my other friend is gonna go to the gym soon and i dont want to be in his way. So I went down to his place......SURPRISE SURPRISE!!!HIS FRIEND WAS THERE ON THE BED..GETTING DRESSED...SWEET, I thought to myself, this is soo like the movies hahahaha, Anyways I grabbed myself and pretend that everything was alright....but IT WASNT. HE fucking deceived me again....even my intuition, or maybe I was just playing blind to the obvious fact that HE's a fucking asshole =(

Consequences

This is what happens when you focus your attention to boys all the time.....you forget about the stuff that are more important...like your fucking bank account! your visa bills! everything essential! How stupid can i be? Im fucked, im suppose to be saving up for school! and now im running on empty (bank account wise) fuck! How can i be sooo stupid? enough going out for me, focus on school and more important stuff! im gonna work my ass off! and I needa new gig....FAST! and i mean like NOW! I need more shifts..please, my stupid ass managers!!!! schedule me! fuck! im really worried about this shit, i dont want to be in debt......I WONT! and I WILL GET MYSELF OUT OF THIS MESS I HAVE CREATED! FUCK! good thing i bought a new book to keep my thoughts on boys away for the moment. fuck boys! they are trouble! stay single, its the new pink =P hey at least im being optimistic about this eh? or not ugh i dont know, we'll see..my life's gonna be like, WORK,GYM,SLEEP,EAT,CHAT for the next couple of weeks, hopefully it will turn out really good....hopefully!!cant wait till next week! paycheck! lol =)

FOR Jake_2.0

Where the hell are you?!?! lol miss ya bud! This one's for you =) I was listening to it on my ipod on my way home and I remembered how much you love her....btw, are you going to watch her concert? miss ya!!!!

WAIT

Wait and it will come.....thats what my co-worker told me last night.....we went out after work and had a "deep" conversation about relationships, and how its hard for us to find THE guy, we kept trying hard to find that guy....which led us to realize that we're trying tooo hard that we forget about ourselves and even more so terrible, we focus on the bad qualities that we have....and get us down more...so that sucks hahahaha anyways he was meeting this guy for the first time lol, and i was just there for a buffer lol nah im kidding, he wanted to meet the guy as well and se hows it goin for him...anyways as soon as the guy arrived lol he shoved me away lol its all good lol i know he loves me still hahaha =) the guys i would say looked pretty normal for a guy who he met online. Anyways after that I called up my friend.....my BEST friend lol who is determined to get me a guy by summer or at least i told him to haha, to come go out with me, I needed a break from everything lol, like i always do every week lol God i should stop lol, our first intention for going out is really to just have fun, guys come second lol =P RIGHHHTTT, anyways we went to this club we frequent every wednesday night....i know who goes out on a wednesday night right? apprently, A LOT of guys...and girls who wants to enjoy the hump day, just to get by through the week. So yea this wednesday night i was feeling lucky, we went in the club/bar whatever, and it was DEAD, no one was dancing, but dont get me wrong, the bars were packed, there just wasnt enough people...so much for my luck eh. as the night progressed i got more uhm depressed, all the guys were hitting on my friend...and not me...lol i hate him haha, anyways I got 3.....I pulled off a joey "how YOU doin?" on one of them lol too funny, anyways now i can only remember 2 of their names, one was derek, the other was kevin from mc d's after the club, i think the other one was jess or jeff, not sure, moving on, derek has a bf which made me more sad lol but whatever, thought he was really cute tho with his faux hawk. and i can tell he's really committed to his bf (??) lol anyways on our way home there was this really sketchy guy, he was all dressed up in a suit, nice shirt and tie, all that jazz......he was dealing us drugs lol, and i was like whoaa, THAT IS SKETCHY.....I was gonna crash at my friends place cause i dont want to pay friggin 40 bucks for a cab ride.....this guy followed us to my friends place.....whats more.....he offered to sleep with us!! LOL nothing hotter than a drugged out straight boy! LOL right, he was like "I've always been curious!" and to add to that....he's really cute..like for real CUTEEE, as we were entering my friend's condo, he was like " are you sure?" i was holding the door open...BUT i know I SHOULDNT so i closed him and let him go to the cab waiting.....by the time we got to my friend's place we were like " I can't believe a straight guy just hit on us" lol a cute one at that! anyways we went to bed laughing lol I had fun =) I know this might seem disconnected with everything but it just made me realize that i shouldn't rush things..it will come, and when it comes it will sweep me off my feet and fall in love (IT being the guy lol).....but before that happens, i must have the patience to wait...wait, and WAIT some more =) another lesson learned.

My Apologies

I am soooooo sorry for not updating the blog as much as i used to...yes I've been busy with stuff..work, as usual and going out....the same shit =( its the first time I had 2 off days in a row so thats good, I got some stuff organized, speaking or which i have to pay my school =S ugh...A GRAND just for DEPOSIT or reservation of your spot...something like that...i am gonna be soooo broke once school start....Its gonna be sunny all week!!!! yay for that!! mmmm i just woke up and i cant think of anything else lol sorry lol I'll update this throughout the day hahaha =)

Back from my Hiatus

I'm back in toronto....my trip was really fun! had a great time with my family =) did lots of shopping and uhm shopping lol whew im really tired....we drove there and back...such a long trip from toronto to penn, it was like 7 hours and from atlantic city to toronto was like 8 hours...damn my ass was sore lol :P I dont think my dad had a hard time driving tho lol he was playing with his cruise control lol I didnt know our van had that till now hahahaha anyways on a lighter note, I did some thinking about myself, and i know i told my self this over and over again......I'll STOP looking for that guy....i know its hard but im trying...starting NOW! im gonna focus more on my studies and other stuff...more important stuff....my friends and family....i need to prioritize what's important in my life right now, like going back to school, and paying my bills...and my job of course =) with that said, im gonna try and not to think of boys right now....lol they're trouble :P

MAY

for the month of may I promise myself that there will be no more boys for now, I want to concentrate more on my family and friends, and most importantly, myself. I am going back to school this fall, and i need to fix up everything to get a loan and freakin move out and shit =P since that would be really awesome :P Then I could throw parties now =P I'm gonna throw some madddd parties hahahaha. Anyways, one of the main reasons why I am partying now is that when school begins I know i wont have time to do it....I'll be sooo immersed on my studies (and my boy?..hopefully lol) that I won't have time to party......sooo im doing it now =P I'm so excited for school...I can't fuckin wait!! lol 

David Guetta

I am a fan of David Guetta.....and too fuckin bad i missed his concert here in toronto =( a couple of months ago.....all i can do is youtube his performances and pretend i was there :( anyways here are some vids

I'm Your Fuel For Life

Mmmm Its really hard to describe a scent isn't it? Anyways, the other day I was looking for a new cologne and I went to Sephora to browse for some....I tried some...but the one cologne that really got me was Diesel's Fuel For Life. there's something to it that smells really calming, and kinda fresh, the scent of the last note lasts a long time...and the scent of the last note is just utterly unspeakable, I Like It. Most of the people I know didn't like it, but whatever. I think I need a more uhm "grown up" smell, compared to my usual Fierce, Clinique Happy, Reaction,  Escada's Summer Heat....they're all fresh and fruity....i need something kinda musky and sexy =P